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The sun is shining
But it's black
A single raindrop falls
Disappearing without notice
I want to feel the sun on me
I concentrate on the warmth
I see smiles
I copy them
Another raindrop falls
I wonder why
I wish for happiness
And freedom
I search for strength and courage
But I don't know what they look like
It starts to rain
I wish I knew answers
I look again to see my heart
I look away
I turn and walk away
To look for safety
It hurts too much
Alexandra Lane
You can't tell me it's not worth trying for
You can't tell me it's worth dying for
Despising the feeling of being marred
Going through life staying on guard
Trying my hardest to escape from me
Only stood in my way to be free
I never imagined it took so much pain
For the life that I dream of to remain
I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize
That dreams move on if I wait too long
Life is too short to play silly games
I've promised myself I won't do that again
You can't tell me it's not worth trying for
you can't tell me it's worth dying for.
Alexandra Lane
A man helped create a soul
Only to kill it shortly after
Had he planned this murder ahead of time
Thinking of ways to slowly kill a soul
Making it drag out for a lifetime
Brainwashing and conditioning so it could go on
When he couldn't be there to continue it first hand
What kind of person does these things to another
He must not have realized the damage he was doing
He disguised himself as my father
I can't understand but I feel
He has taken my soul and haunted my hours
Now he has the nerve to say that the only way
To make it better is if I kill myself
With a smile you said you'd be proud of me then
I've failed at that forever
Is it really that important to me now?
Alexandra Lane
A father's special love to his daughter
Keep it for yourself
The special secrets shown to her alone
Keep it for your own
Attention given under his conditions
Keep it for yourself
Years of feeling hurt and alone
Keep it for your own
A lifetime of nitemares crashing down
Keep it to yourself
Feeling guilty isolated and alone
Keep it as your own
Feeling dirty and stained because of love
Keep it to yourself
Protecting the guilty responsible
Keep it to yourself?
Alexandra Lane
It takes a little courage
And a lot of self control
And some given determination
If you want to reach a goal
No matter what the battle
If you really want to win
You have to get on the saddle
And ride it to the end
Alexandra Lane